I don't think there is a Vietnamese word that is totally equivalent to "resentment". Yet I have been seeing (and probably experiencing) so much resentment lately, be it about a country that is disliked, a trend that is criticised, a past that is regretted. It kind of scares me, to be quite honest.

Frankly, I don't even know where these waves of resentment are coming from. Everywhere we go my mum would refuse (or at least avoid) any kind of products that are made in China. That is most probably out of fear that any product made in China is toxic, dangerous and low-quality, despite the fact that 90% of the world's stuffs are made in China (random, unchecked statistics) and in a place like Vietnam the label can be switched in a minute. The resentment continues on at any sort of news that pops up on the TV about China, especially with the recent debates about sovereignty over the islands, whereas my parents would immediately say something that can be roughly paraphrased as "F*ck China and their greed!". After a while, the repetition becomes dull and really annoying.

My family eats dinner around news time (and even if it's not news time there would be news programmes on other channels, since it would be awkward for them to watch American shows - which I prefer). It amazes me how resentment has cut really deep into their perceptions of life, most remarkably the anti-China sentiments and the skepticism towards the government. When these conversations pop up in almost all the interactions that my family has with others, I realise that the society has been filled with resentment. Over China. Over the government. Over the Korean pop culture that is making waves on thousands of fans and, more importantly, anti-fans, and the ones who may have never heard or seen a K-Pop performance but jumping on the bandwagon of hate against Korean pop and their fans because it's the "cool" thing to do.

Personally I have my resentment over a lot of things too. Seeing how resentful people can be makes me realise my resentment, sort of. I don't know. Wouldn't letting go and being grateful for what you already have be a much better solution, rather than being so angry and hateful? I bitch about (many, many) things too, but I let go and don't want to focus on the negativity. Or so I try.

I don't know much about algebra, but I think everyone should just want to be happy. That's a weird sentence, but I hope you get my point.

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